still alive!

Hey guys, haven't blogged in a couple. Its been a rough couple of days. Altitude sickness hit me really hard. But I kept working through it. It is starting to lift now, I'm not feeling so dizzy anymore. And my energy level is much better. I've been starting off every early morning workout with some puking. They are calling me "Barf". Ha ha.

Things are going great, I feel like I'm starting to get into a routine. Becoming more comfortable with what we are doing. I feel lonely at night. But God is really with me and he takes care of me.

Today during an afternoon workout I hit my wall. It was almost impossible to lift my legs or move at all. My trainer wanted me to work through it. Then I found out he wanted to wear me out to exhaustion and deal with some stuff. Its crazy, these trainers aren't just trainers, most of them have counseling degrees and really know what they are doing. Its amazing how honest you will be when you are at the brink of literally falling down. So we dug into all kinds of stuff from my childhood. Reasons why I find myself 30 and so unhealthy, and how that affects me not only physically but mentally and spiritually also. I know that I can never go back to some habits that I am now breaking. They kept me a prisoner in my own body for years. The old Ken is slowly fading and I'm pretty stoked about what God is shaping!

If I'm not working out or passed out on the floor I am reading my Bible. I feel like God is breaking me in every way. Its amazing what God will start to do when we let him deal with all the B.S. we carry around. I've got emotional stuff from childhood that I've allowed to shape me as an adult. It all has to go.

Its crazy, this journey is just starting, but I have this feeling that God is transforming me in a huge way. I guess that's what happens when your done jacking up stuff on your own. There's no where to go but up!

Tomorrow might be a little rough. We are going up to one of the tallest mountains here and going snowshoeing. The altitude is going to suck, I'm sure I will be barfing again! We are at about 6000 ft above sea level here. Tomorrow we are going another 4300 feet up. The view should be awesome though. I'm looking forward to it.

Well my massage therapist Lorenzo should be here any minute. My upper back and neck muscles have been locking up me. And I've been getting wicked cramps. I hate bananas but they keep shoving them down my throat. And I'm eating avocado now, which I've always hated.
New things right?

We are going to a comedy club tomorrow night, we are all excited bout that. And then we are going to the Salt Flats on Sunday. They say it is awesome. I'm taking my camera snowshoeing tomorrow, so I'll try and post some pics. Maybe we can get a good one of my launching my protein shake over the side of the mountain!

much love
ken out